I punched in the word, writer on the list of tag lines, and your blog jumped out at me from the screen.
The, I will not be cynical mantra was something that should have been drummed into my head years ago.
It would have saved every relationship I have messed up, torn apart, and then thrown away.
And on that cheerful note, I'll be more…
Especially as your own skin gets older and wrinklier, and you wonder where the young one went!!!
I try to buck myself up with a very simple and stupid thought, especially when I see someone young and so happy in their own skin, you're either getting older and thinking these thoughts or you're dead. And I'd rather be alive - at the moment any more…
Agree with you. Am reading some great books about Evolution and Darwinism. Evolved life also looks planned but is the result of events that shaped it. But it's not all arbitrary.. more…
Some people like to believe that they are not in control of the events that surround them, but in fact that things are being manipulated by a higher power. It excuses their own short-comings while also gives them something to chase that they will never catch.
The truth is, events are often unordered, meaningless and arbitrary and it's more…
I look in the mirror and remember being 15 when I couldn't believe my face would ever change!
And I look in the mirror and wonder where all the time went. more…
Had been miserable for bout 10 days but that all changed Friday morn, woke feeling really good and I am so relieved as had no idea why I felt like crap!!
I tried to be positive on a last minute walk around the block just now. But it's always the same things! Or something to be stressed about! More houses being built, more traffic! And the nicest bit is a golf course that they want to sell and build on - - just a bit more stress!
However there were some small things - the crows landing on a la more…
Much though I envy the fact that you've lived in Florence (I haven't even visited it ... it's on my list) I do think you're right about it being 'inside', not the place. I've become aware of a shift in my attitudes to a more positive view of things and realise it is as much about changes inside of me as external circumstances. more…
Yes. Man's reach should outstretch his grasp. Great quote.
The confined place is our house! And getting older.
Hemmed in mostly by paying for the mortgage! Dreaming of moving somewhere else. Bored by the walks outside the house. Freelance ennui!
But actually I felt the same ennui in Florence, living there in the 1980s. So it isn more…
Wise words. I cannot bear to be boxed in and yet, each time I break free I cause so much pain to myself and others. But I must. We all must stay true to ourselves, mustn't we? more…
It depends what you mean by the 'deep-down-inside-level'. At a fundamental level we are all the same, we need food, light, water, warmth - basic animal needs.
Beyond that, we are all so different and that's what makes us all so interesting.
In terms of 'You' I don't believe the majority of people reading it would recognise more…
We may all look different and present a different "external" face to the world, as you say.
But we are (almost) all the same at the deep-down-inside level. Some of us know that and some of us don't. The ones that don't know, understandably think that they are special.
Your earlier post "You...." perfectly echoes this point more…
But moping about has a certain decadent, bohemian feel about it. I indulge occasionally, it's most satisfying. Panic attacks, on the other hand, are harder to control...xLux more…
Yes. I thought I'd killed off that particular demon but apparently not, which pisses me off a bit but at least I'm pissed off rather than moping about. more…
It called a panic attack, Alsemero. Panting, vigorous use of chinese fans and heaving of chests in old Pride and Prejudice money. God, I miss blogging. more…
The short answer is, I'm not sure that I do fit anywhere really because, wherever I am, something in me questions and doubts that situation and so I think about alternatives and opposites.
I can be more comfortable in some situations than others, more at ease, so I'm not a complete neurotic fruitcake. In fact, I'm pretty laid back most more…
Recent comments (30)
In response to: "like an unwelcome guest ..." 126 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Talk about cynism, look at this scary example from sweden
http://doctor-cheat.blogspot.com/ more…
In response to: "like an unwelcome guest ..." 162 days old
by HOLLYWOODGLAMOURBOY [Member]
I punched in the word, writer on the list of tag lines, and your blog jumped out at me from the screen.
The, I will not be cynical mantra was something that should have been drummed into my head years ago.
It would have saved every relationship I have messed up, torn apart, and then thrown away.
And on that cheerful note, I'll be more…
In response to: "like an unwelcome guest ..." 189 days old
by hobbyhorse [Member]
Especially as your own skin gets older and wrinklier, and you wonder where the young one went!!!
I try to buck myself up with a very simple and stupid thought, especially when I see someone young and so happy in their own skin, you're either getting older and thinking these thoughts or you're dead. And I'd rather be alive - at the moment any more…
In response to: "denial ..." 219 days old
by alsemero [Member]
I know you're right ... but ain't life difficult and complicated sometimes? more…
In response to: "denial ..." 227 days old
by hobbyhorse [Member]
I think yes - if you love the person you are with. more…
In response to: "denial ..." 228 days old
by vetusmatris [Member]
Common advice says to follow your instincts and be drawn in.
Measured advice would be to tread carefully
Careful advice would be to protect yourself (ok, thats my advice to myself and it doesn't work)
Is there something that stops you from following instinct? Is there a reason for you NOT to? Is it a valid more…
In response to: "denial ..." 229 days old
by Plasticflower [Member]
I have never done that. I bear the scars though. x more…
In response to: "conspiracy theories ..." 239 days old
by hobbyhorse [Member]
Agree with you. Am reading some great books about Evolution and Darwinism. Evolved life also looks planned but is the result of events that shaped it. But it's not all arbitrary.. more…
In response to: "conspiracy theories ..." 240 days old
by DominicGee [Member]
Some people like to believe that they are not in control of the events that surround them, but in fact that things are being manipulated by a higher power. It excuses their own short-comings while also gives them something to chase that they will never catch.
The truth is, events are often unordered, meaningless and arbitrary and it's more…
In response to: "bittersweet ..." 248 days old
by hobbyhorse [Member]
And there's the beauty too of moments you can revisit - moments that always fulfil.
For me that would also be sitting looking out over the sea where we go on holiday every year. And as you have experienced the 'memory lingers on'
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon th more…
In response to: "bittersweet ..." 249 days old
by alsemero [Member]
And how many of these moments do we have? And equally, how many moments do we have of 'pass, moment, you are terrible'?
'Oh what a beautiful, terrible thing life is.' more…
In response to: "bittersweet ..." 249 days old
by Plasticflower [Member]
Goethe's "STOP, MOMENT, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL". X more…
In response to: "and some days ..." 255 days old
by hobbyhorse [Member]
I look in the mirror and remember being 15 when I couldn't believe my face would ever change!
And I look in the mirror and wonder where all the time went. more…
In response to: "and some days ..." 260 days old
by Plasticflower [Member]
I don't. I'll never know, and gave up a long time ago even asking.... x more…
In response to: "why oh why oh why ..." 264 days old
by titsaleenabumsqueak [Member]
My thoughts exactly!!!
Had been miserable for bout 10 days but that all changed Friday morn, woke feeling really good and I am so relieved as had no idea why I felt like crap!!
more…
In response to: "Boxed in" 269 days old
by hobbyhorse [Member]
I tried to be positive on a last minute walk around the block just now. But it's always the same things! Or something to be stressed about! More houses being built, more traffic! And the nicest bit is a golf course that they want to sell and build on - - just a bit more stress!
However there were some small things - the crows landing on a la more…
In response to: "Boxed in" 285 days old
by alsemero [Member]
Much though I envy the fact that you've lived in Florence (I haven't even visited it ... it's on my list) I do think you're right about it being 'inside', not the place. I've become aware of a shift in my attitudes to a more positive view of things and realise it is as much about changes inside of me as external circumstances. more…
In response to: "Boxed in" 286 days old
by hobbyhorse [Member]
Yes. Man's reach should outstretch his grasp. Great quote.
The confined place is our house! And getting older.
Hemmed in mostly by paying for the mortgage! Dreaming of moving somewhere else. Bored by the walks outside the house. Freelance ennui!
But actually I felt the same ennui in Florence, living there in the 1980s. So it isn more…
In response to: "Boxed in" 335 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Wise words. I cannot bear to be boxed in and yet, each time I break free I cause so much pain to myself and others. But I must. We all must stay true to ourselves, mustn't we? more…
In response to: "if we had to choose ..." 336 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
Both.
A word of advice - never make a woman choose. It'll take her for ever. more…
In response to: "inexplicable forces" 338 days old
by God-himself [Member]
Your problem lies in the sad fact that you always look for reason and order. Even where there is none.
My Chaos is perfectly disorderly.
Signed
God-himself more…
In response to: "contradictions" 344 days old
by rubychoo [Member]
People are complicated...
We can be dualistic yet remain grounded if we maintain an internal dialogue without striving too hard for self-knowlege...
Its a multi-faceted minefield ...
We can only wish each other well in picking our way through it !...
:)
more…
In response to: "contradictions" 346 days old
by alsemero [Member]
It depends what you mean by the 'deep-down-inside-level'. At a fundamental level we are all the same, we need food, light, water, warmth - basic animal needs.
Beyond that, we are all so different and that's what makes us all so interesting.
In terms of 'You' I don't believe the majority of people reading it would recognise more…
In response to: "contradictions" 347 days old
by Starwatcher Pro
We may all look different and present a different "external" face to the world, as you say.
But we are (almost) all the same at the deep-down-inside level. Some of us know that and some of us don't. The ones that don't know, understandably think that they are special.
Your earlier post "You...." perfectly echoes this point more…
In response to: "this is the ..." 352 days old
by lucreziaborgia Pro
Then I am but a sliver of reality away from that. xLux more…
In response to: "fall apart ..." 370 days old
by lucreziaborgia Pro
But moping about has a certain decadent, bohemian feel about it. I indulge occasionally, it's most satisfying. Panic attacks, on the other hand, are harder to control...xLux more…
In response to: "fall apart ..." 373 days old
by alsemero [Member]
Yes. I thought I'd killed off that particular demon but apparently not, which pisses me off a bit but at least I'm pissed off rather than moping about. more…
In response to: "fall apart ..." 373 days old
by deleted user [Visitor]
It called a panic attack, Alsemero. Panting, vigorous use of chinese fans and heaving of chests in old Pride and Prejudice money. God, I miss blogging. more…
In response to: "You ..." 374 days old
by alsemero [Member]
The short answer is, I'm not sure that I do fit anywhere really because, wherever I am, something in me questions and doubts that situation and so I think about alternatives and opposites.
I can be more comfortable in some situations than others, more at ease, so I'm not a complete neurotic fruitcake. In fact, I'm pretty laid back most more…
In response to: "You ..." 379 days old
by Prettyintelligentprincess Pro
So...where is it you fit? You. Not us. more…